lol

wei qian.. i dunno wad to post lahz.. haha.. dats y nv post lor.. u help me think of some topics to post? lol.. any ideas?

omg

omg man.. had a dream last nite..

My dream : i was expelled from poly.. right on the examination week.. when whole class was studying together.. and the worst part.. even secondary sch was not willing to take me in..

haha.. damn scared lor. when i woke up.. hope this stupid dream will never come true

yea man

woo~~~ so many days of sports.. simply love it.. haha.. tuesday bball, wed running and bball, thurs bball, fri swimming.. lol.. goddamn shiok!

hmmm

so long nv post le.. also dunno wad to post.. juz that.. hmm... boring sch life? dun think any1 will like sch bahz.. i will post again when i think of things to post..

grr

sian.. sch starting tml le.. have to wake up early..

how i wish we will have a longer holiday.. anyway.. fresh start for sch.. TRY to work hard for this sem.. lol..

no more

fucking screwed.. no night cycling le!! zzZZZzzz.. guess have to find prog for tml..

wish all of those in DBEN: good luck for the presentation tml!

borrow books sia

haha.. went to borrow books juz now.. cant believe it.. looks like i am turning for the better! haha.. the studious me is appearing!! 0:

night cycling coming soon! looking forward to it

some1 pls

grand loser sia.. for pool.. haha.. damn jia lat today.. i did not even win 1 rd.. haha..

anyway.. enjoy our last week of holiday while we can! lets all go out tgt! lol.. but some1 got to plan.. any1 willing to do that?

postponed...

sad sia.. cycling postponed to tuesday.. guys.. confirm wif me if u all can make it anot.. our tour guide isaac cannot make it.. haha..

c u guys on tuesday for presentation..

boring day

haha.. juz another day. gym and fyp.. lol.. though it's holiday, it seems that i have no life man..

hope can go night cycling this sunday.. so people out there.. faster confirm wif me! haha.. so that i can plan a time for us to meet and have dinner b4 cycling.. quick quick.. holiday ending soon le.. 3 more weeks.. enjoy all we can.. lol..

hope to c you guys on sunday..

new song!

haha.. change the song of my blog.. now crazy over this song! lol.. damn addictive man.. make me juz wanna listen over and over again.. lol..

anyway.. i guess i have really gotten over cz le bahz.. cuz i started liking someone without knowing it.. does it mean that i'm some1 who change "target" too easily or quickly.. but i dunno how others will look at me.. but i'm kinda glad that i have a change of heart.. cuz no point holding to something which will never come back..

lol

lol.. i'm being asked to blog more .. so looks like i have no choice but to keep blogging.. haha..

going kbox wif my sec sch frens tml.. lol.. damn long nv c them le.. wonder how much they have changed.. haha.. looking forward to tml.. hmm.. i will blog again when i think of sth to blog.. haha..

cya guys real soon!

stupid post

lol.. some funny guy ask me to update my blog so here i am, updating it.. lol..

hmm.. also dunno wad to blog about. juz hope that can enjoy more before school reopens and really need a job now.. running low on cash. haha.. no cash = no life.. got to plan night cycling man.. haha.. guess it will be the week after next week.. lol..

crazy over a taiwan drama right now. hot shot.. lol. the basketball coach is so damn pretty man!

kinda bored these days. got to start working next week already.. no more free time on weekends.. so sad.. lol. looking forward to night cycling as well.. hope some friends of mine would be interested..

sooo stupid

stupid EGG HEAD aka qian ya! i nv dao u lor.. i did reply u though i was watching olympics.. so stupid sia.. lidat also say me dao..

goo study la.. still tag tag tag.. lol.. no much time left to study le also..

exams

stress stress stress.. exams coming again! haha!! this friday will be the 1st paper. the following monday, wednesday and thursday will be the next 3. mostly theory and i juz started studying TODAY! haha.. hope i can juz pass for all.. so that i wun have to repeat!

anyway! good luck to those taking their exams. more luck to DBEN/3A/01! all the best to all and take care

wad a bet

hey.. qian and cynt.. i will make sure i get the treat from u guys.. and not the other way round.. .. haha.

gonna make u guys regret betting with me!! :)

well. cant really get her off my mind.. i guess i have to contact her less.. thats the only way ba.. but i dunno y.. i juz simply enjoy chatting wif her on the phone.. mayb i'm too used to it le ba..

haiz.. unexpectedly, i still cant get over her completely... i tot i had.. but the actual fact is the complete opposite of wad i think..

i dunno y i hadn't got over her.. but i juz wish i could...

wow?

woo~ finally.. had a conver wif my pri sch friends on msn.. they are crappy! (esp wuya and roger) haha.. but fun!
hope can meet up wif them real soon.. mayb juz to chill or wad!

c u guys REAL soon! take care and all the best!

damn

haha! damn it.. lol.. have to take the retest for my tests.. reason : failed TERRIBLY!!
haha.. no choice.. and have to study for it AGAIN! hate it so much...

goonnna quit smoking for good.. making me feel sick as the time goes by.. better stop b4 it worsens. lol..

argh!

argh! study study study.. test is juz tml and i have not study much for it.. juz started abt an hr ago and not even half done wif chap 1. guess have to study the whole night without sleep (if i can! haha!)

anyway.. all the best to my classmates! for this last test b4 we worry for our exams! lol.. work hard and all the way!

3 down 1 more to go

3 tests down.. 1 last to go.. on monday.. hope i wun fair badly for the previous 3 test.

for all those who are having exams/tests now, good luck and all the best! haha..

no chance to enjoy this sem.. too short and too many tests/exams to handle.. stupid school.. we still have FYP to work on as well.. 24 hrs a day is not enough for most of us.. lol.. dont u guys agreE??

:)

work study work study.. getting use to the lifestyle again.. how i wish i could juz work and not having to go sch..

exams in about 5 weeks time.. getting worried abt it though.. got to pay attention in class le.. hahaha..

watched soccer last night.. SPAIN!!! haha.. tuwe tuwe

phew

finally! 2 down.. 2 more to go before the major exams.. kinda stress this week though.. didnt get much sleep for last night.. was studying till next morning.

today's paper....... up lorry le.. lol.. really damn jialat. hope i can pass bahz.

diu

haiz.. stress!! exams coming .. gonna study tonight.. FC sch if qualifications is not impt..

DIU the bloody sch.. make me so stress

hmmm

damn sianx sia.. juz back from work.. haiz.. hate work !! but i need the cash.. lol.. exams coming.. haven start studying yet.. damn it.. lol..

sch reopens tml.. piles of assignment left undone.. have to rush everything le.. sch sucks! lol..

NNM

didnt get to watch kungfu panda today.

dunno wad to post today.. hmm.. well.. thanks shawn.. for meeting me early when the movie was being called off. appreciate it..

wow....

finally finish my pack le.. not gonna buy anymore! haha!! lol.. fell in love with a song by mario (how could you).. haha.. a freaking nice song man!

anyway.. No point staying put at the same spot.. guess have to move on pretty fast for now.. but i still need some more time though.. that was the best relationship i ever had.. hope i can move on in just a matter of 2-3 days..

catching kungfu panda tml le.. as well as playing pool with my BROTHERS (just in case u guys cant c it! lol)
tuwe tuwe!!

oh well.....

When to catch a movie (you don't mess with the zohan) with my BROTHERS today. Haha! A pretty funny movie but it's worth the money. Next movie to catch would be KungFu Panda. LOL..

well.. Burnt some of the pictures which she printed for me. I dunno why did i burn it though. I was just going through my wallet and there i found those pictures. Maybe emotions came over me and that caused me to burn them. Maybe that's the right thing to do as what's gone is gone and it will never come back again, just like the pictures...

it was gone... on the 23/6/08

It was that very fateful day which caused me to regret it now. The very day which ended the relationship of mine (2-2-07 ----- 23-6-08). This relationship was never wrong at all, just that the problem lies with me. I was the one who gave it up yet wanting it back.

Never thought that she would get attached so fast too. It was too late for any regrets as i ruined my own relationship.. Feeling so lost and empty, i seemed to have lost something so important to me.. Didn't know that she meant so much to me until the day when i couldn't sleep because i was just too worried for her.. But things were advancing too fast, she got attached too soon before i could even attempt to salvage our relationship.. It pains me to know about that, partly because i knew that i was the one who let her down in the first place.. And now, there she is with another guy.. Having a brand new relationship, a new chapter of her life to begin with.. The chapter which the both of us once had had ended.. The chapter closed and with no chance to edit it again..

Penning down my thoughts into this blog seems to be the most ridiculous thing i will ever do. But this time, i really had no choice.. The pain is too much for me to bear.. As hard as i tried to move on and forget about her, memories of the places we went and the things we did keep flashing back.. Each time it happens, i will feel so lost, helpless and hurt.. I do not want to end this relationship just like that, but her choice was clear.. She had chosen the new guy over me.. Maybe because she was so afraid that i will hurt her again?

I am willing to change for her but was not given a chance to do so. Everything about her has changed. The feelings, thinking, lifestyle and boyfriend.... I can't get use to the new lifestyle of mine without her. In the past, we were chatting on the phone everyday but right now, i cant do that anymore. Only myself to blame for the pain i am having now, for the failed relationship and for the things i did to hurt her in the past, which resulted in her depriving me of a chance to be back together with her again..

2-2-07 shall be the day i will never forget......